Sacrificing something I loved to make someone else happy, was one of the hardest things I ever did.
And the day I watched Nicole Duffy walk away from me, after I told her we couldnt be together anymore.
Was one of the lowest days I have ever experienced and I will never forget it.
Nicole & I had never been close friends. In fact. I was close with her sister Leah Duffy (Who I actually hit on at a school sports carnival. Another story for another day) before I even talked to Nicole. We only hung out 3 times before I gained the courage to kiss her for the first time, which might I add was alot harder than I expected. (trust me)
The day I asked Nicole to be my girlfriend I remember I was INCREDIBLY (could I emphasize that any more than what I just did?) nervous because it was also the first time I was meeting her mother & going to her house. It was a day of firsts ill tell you that. I remember sitting on Nicoles bed and I watched her clean her room and we just talked about anything & everything that popped into our heads. I remember pulling her onto my lap and telling her how I felt. i remember asking her out in the stupidest way possible.
"So like, I think you should be my girlfriend"
She just. Looked at me. She blushed and looked down at her lap with the biggest smiel on her face. but she didnt answer me, "this isnt going to work if you dont give me an answer" I said with a smile on my face, trying my hardest to hide my fear of rejection.
In reality, who was I to her?
She was one of the most loved girls at Hampton Park.
She had never been in a fight or argument.
You would never hear the phrase "I hate Nicole Duffy"
because nobody did.
And then Me, Maxx Dow. Need I say more?
But never the less she finally answered me. Giving me that yes that I craved so badly. and then after half an hour we shared our first kiss. I'd explain why half an hour. But I do not want to embarass Miss Duffy.
Right now, Id like to take a moment to let you all know, that I was never good enough for her. And every moment we shared was a moment that I will cherish forever.
After a month people started to fully catch on to the fact that Nicole & Myself were together and a few people began to harrass her asking her why she's dating me of all people, telling her that I'm just going to cheat on her like I have with "all of his other ex's". This visually distressed Nicole and sometimes I would get phone calls at night telling me that another person had been saying things to her.
It broke my heart.
Everytime I would tell Nicole that it was not true.
Everytime I would tell her not to listen.
Everytime She would agree with me.
But it always happened again.
Soon, I couldnt hang out with anybody without people spreading rumours about what I was doing.
One night after talking to Nicole once again. I searched for comfort and found it through a close friend of mine Blaire Cartmill. After a small disagreement between Nicole & I, I went to Bliare's house where I did something I regret more than anything.
I cheated on Nicole.
I did what everybody said I would do.
I went against every moral fibre in my being.
I broke her heart.
Another moment where I would like to clear something up. Blaire and I never had sex. Ever.
So please, If not for me, then for her, stop saying we did.
The morning after when I woke up, Blaire and Myself both realised exactly what we had done, I could see it in her eyes and I believe she saw it in mine.
That morning Blaire confided in her friend & an old close friend of mine Nicholas Barberessos. Who, with Nicoles best interests at heart, told her striaght away. I would have rathered tell her this myself. but the masses cannot be stopped.
Surprisingly Nicole forgave me, even though nobody else did.
But that wasnt the end of it. Not by a long shot.
Part IV?
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